This year has been A Lot, and I wanted to try putting into words how I feel about my mom and the choices we all make in this life, specifically the choice to keep moving on despite it all.
It's no secret I've struggled for years with undiagnosed mental health issues, and with that, there were times I struggled with suicidal ideation and even made attempts to end my life.
But I'm still here, and every day I choose to keep going. Not just for myself, but for my mom who has constantly chosen me when some would have walked away.
So here's to you mom. Having you in my life is a privilege I don't take for granted.
Thank you for choosing us.
By Choice
not everyone is so lucky
so privileged
to have a mom
like you
who chooses them
everyday
above all else
who rides out the bad
days
months
years
not knowing if the storm will pass
(but hoping it does)
who takes a chance on every moment
that what they say
what they do
will help their child
be better
do better
live better
(to survive)
nothing is guaranteed
in this life
in our life
every day is an anxious amble down an unpaved road
time controlled by the only universal constant
the one we fear to name
but know its name nonetheless
the cut cord that breaks our ties to each other
by chance
by choice
so we prepare for the worst
hope for the best
and try to find sparks of joy
even in the darkest nights
we come into this world
by chance
by choice
by someone who must make a choice
forever make choices
for themselves
for another
by chance
by choice
not everyone is ready
to make choices
to ride storms
to gamble moments
to amble down unpaved roads
like you
Shoutout to Emmett Nahil for editing on this! Check out his site for info on how you can book him for editing and project consultation, and check out his newest Kickstarter for his graphic novel, Let Me Out!
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